Talking about the shame

by Anon

I tried so many times to end the relationship, and didn't make it because he threatened to commit suicide.I couldn't talk to people about my problems because I was afraid that once the truth came out people would be watching me, and I would fail to get out of the relationship again, like so many times before. It would be double shame, living with a jerk, and to continue living with him while people knowing.

It turned out, that for me it was important to tell someone about my problems, not a best friend, but a distant friend.I had to change pattern, because the way I tried to get out before didn't work.

The way I continued to live was the way I got out. But now I talk to close friends. They didn't suspect that I was in such a bad relationship. People really cared about me, my boss, my family and friends, and my doctor.

And it helped to have sex with a nice guy! I don't know him at all, but it helped knowing there really are nice men to have sex with, feeling safe afterwards.

Good luck!