Be strong

by Lisa
(Melbourne victoria)

Hi my name is Lisa and I have been in a abusive relationship for 5,years and it's still going I live in fear every day of my life and I don't know what he's gona do next.

I am all alone and have no one to talk to.

Just 3 hours ago he tried to pick my locks and tried to get in my house I was paralyzed with fear,I had my phone in my hand and I was gonna call 000.

Thank goodness he didn't get in I have been too afraid to fall asleep and I am so tired, nearly every day I have been beaten kicked out of home nearly set on fire he has used a tazor gun on me has gagged me. Slept with other women since I have been with him.

I finally had the courage to leave the home I shared with him, but I have been followed and stalked every day and it is still going on, on one occasion he brought a women home and had sex with her in the house that I shared with him I felt that sick I vomited I have to live with that disgusting torment.

Things have gotten worse that I have to put high security in my home. I feel like a prisoner in my own home. I some times can't leave my home and if I do he calls me non stop: accuses me of being with other men ... if I want to go shopping, I have to report to him when I'm leaving and when I get home. If I don't then I know what will be waiting for me. Even if I don't answer my phone I will get beaten up for it. I have to find the strength to leave, to rent another home so I can be safe, but he keeps on following me.

It's not right what these men do: they're monsters!

Every day I live in fear. I can't stand looking at him any more. I am so afraid of my life. I hate being his punching bag. I hate him,I loved him but not any more.

Violence isn't ok, he has taken everything from me I feel like I'm all alone I hope my story helps other victims going through the same thing

With love, Lisa xxx

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Jun 05, 2015
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please be strong
by: Sally

Hey Lisa,
I am a survivor of domestic violence,, your story makes me feel very concerned for you, I know exactly how you are feeling, do you have any family or friends you can tell? You must ring the police, I know how hard that is to do,I never rang the police until it got to a situation I had no choice but too, and I so wish I had done it sooner, honestly as soon as you take that first step you will feel a huge relief, once they are aware of your situation and know you want over they will refer you to all the relevant people to help you, I truly know what a hard step it is to take, I was in my abusive relationship for 6years and for the last 2yrs of that relationship I was trying to get away from him, he stalked me, smashed my car, threw bricks at my windows, threatened me and my children, my family and friends, a complete and utter idiot, I put off and put off ringing the police, out of humilation, pride, fear, but when I did you realise you should of done it so much sooner, they put me with the right people to help, not criticise, people who seem to know all the answers and fully understand, they helped me move to a secure location so he doesn't know where I am, I had a completely new beginning, you will never have to live in fear again,it's not an easy route with lots of ups and downs but no matter how many downs their are they will never be as bad as you feel now,, I had counselling and antidepressants, but I found the strength I put myself first and picked myself up,put back together all the broken pieces that I thought could never be healed and 4yrs on and at 40yrs old I am the happiest I've ever been, married to a wonderful man and a little boy and just starting my own business, their really is light at the end of the tunnel and I hope you find it, I truly hope this gives you courage and you get the help you need, you have nothing to be ashamed about ever,,, he is the one who should feel that.

Good luck please let me know how you're getting on?
Sending lots of healing and strength to you,
All the best
Sally
Xxx

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